___liesandsins

Saturday, June 30, 2007

ok, so

summer test is over
i think it's difficult
more difficult than o lvls
i've never studied so much before
having holidays for 5 days
i need a longer holiday
i have school beginning from next week
i cut my hair
i miss my secondary school
i miss my secondary school friends
i feel awkward at jc without my friends around
i think im going to poly next year if i fail
but i hope things go well
am awaiting for better days

LiesandSins__
12:57 pm

Friday, June 29, 2007

i've been doing some thinking and i just thought that i should post up this entry.

ok, if u owe someone, u would definitely try to pay back right?

that's what i would do,

i would try to pay the person back asap, even if it means going without lunch for one week

i would pay installments and not wait for years...just to pay him, i would at least pay him a certain amount first even if i dont have the money

i would not try to run away from the fact that i owe the person...like as in when the person asks me about the money, i would discuss with him/her how to go about doing it. and not just ignore and look at him blankly or joke about it...

or just give excuses like next month...or my next pay, my next pay...

and worst of all, the next month, that person buys a psp, or fixes his psp without paying you first

and when you keep bugging him for the money, he gets irritated, he confronts you on msn asking you why you are acting this way and even to the extent of willing to let it affect the friendship.

the thing is, dont talk to me about friendship when you yourself dont fulfill your responsibilty as a friend of paying what you owe me. i mean like you took two years.

and the thing i hate most is when ppl dont admit what they do. they dont admit spoiling ppl's stuffs. here's the thing, my discman is spoilt because the cover broke...this exposes the laser reading the cds to light, dusts which then spoils it

and i dont lie ok...
and i think it's lame for you to say you only promised to pay for the cover? like, what????

ok so those are the things that i've been keeping inside of me that i think i should just post up here and hope that someone reads and understands how i'm feeling.

ok fine, maybe u've paid 50, but after two years? and where's the rest? u promised next month and next month and still nth.

the way i see it, even if the friendship is affected, i dont care as if you are a friend, i would not have to wait for two years in the first place and i still am waiting.

i've been keeping this inside of me for too long, why do i always have to be the one that has to compromise and keep my discontent inside of me? i have the right to say what i feel too.

and the thing is, this is my blog. if you hate to see what i post, then...too bad.

yeah, so that's all i guess.

LiesandSins__
12:19 am

Monday, June 25, 2007

WAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HISTORY SUCKS MAN. I DIDNT REALLY KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THE QUESTIONS. AH FUCK IT.

3 MORE PAPERS TO GO.

TMR IS ECONS.

I THINK I'M NOT SLEEPING TONIGHT.

RANDOM TARDYNESS

LiesandSins__
10:59 pm

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

hello. haha...yes the end of the holidays is bringing misery to me...time flies so fast that i just realised that i have summer test, starting with history tmr. and i have not studied. please just kill me or sth. i'm in really deep shit this time.

i wasted my time. just like that. fuck.

and i remembered how scared i was for o lvls. well, that was nth. maybe this is nth also. at least not yet.

what the hell was i thinking going into jc?

LiesandSins__
12:52 am

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

lol...ok, so i sound emo in my blog entries eh?

nvr really thought about it...but hey, i typed what i feel k.

and yeah maybe i am emo, as in emotional...at least i dont type entries like telling ppl how many times i masturbated that day, how many times i farted or what porn websites i visited. lol.

i don't mean it literally k. i mean at least i dont just say what i did? and i'm not writing this for ppl's reading pleasure...(really?) lol...well at least i try not to, i just try to make it somewhat not too boring? you get what i mean...you wouldn't want to make a fool of yourself in front of i-don't-know-how-many?-millions-of-people?-who-might-just-come-across-ur-blog? right?

hmm...anyways, tmr having sentosa outing with secondary school class. looking forward to it? can't really say.

but anyways, i do really miss being a secondary school student.

this sucks.

LiesandSins__
1:44 am

Friday, June 08, 2007

hey...

yeah it's late at night...it's 2:15 am.

and i like the feeling...the feeling of being alone and listening to songs and trying to study. yeah, trying to...lol. well, i keep getting distracted by some things and listening to certain songs just makes me feel worse.

i really miss playing the guitar and performing...that's one of the ways i escape from reality (besides smoking) - yes i'm always in denial about my life.

performing or simply playing the guitar makes me forget about my problems...it makes me feel great about myself.

too bad that wont happen anymore.

so now what? studying only makes me bored to death.

life sucks, really. all i need is someone. that someone to make me feel glad about my life. i've lost you. and i lost myself along the way. i'm sorry. this sucks.

LiesandSins__
2:17 am

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

hey...yes i've not been updating...cos really, there's nth for me to update about.

life's been boring. school too. i think i'm still in the slacking mood i was in after o levels. or maybe that i don't have fun friends anymore. well, jc friends, they are nice people...but secondary school friends...well, no one can compare to them. but not all are great...you can really tell who will be by your side and i've been having a fallout with some of them.

gotta mug for summer test soon...i'm in a dilemma...i feel like failing on purpose as i really cant take jc...it's boring...but then again, one year and the amount of money i've spent...not to mention, my parents' faith in me.

let's just see what happens.

LiesandSins__
3:18 pm